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Real Deal Holyfield

With the semester winding down and finals right around the corner, life has started moving very quickly in very different directions. I realized the speed of things today when I went to the restroom and I felt the ground shake. My first thought was earthquake but we don’t have those here; then I realized, the ground hadn’t moved, I was trembling and shaking. Unsteady and unsure of anything, I couldn’t stop myself from convulsing. I don’t know where this came from but it sure did scare me.
So right there in the bathroom stall I cried and I prayed. I prayed for myself and my family and for guidance through the rest of this semester.

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NWTS

Nothing was the same or how its supposed to be or how I thought it would be. Everything is wrong and out of place and out of order and i never thought I’d be here. But this is how life works apparently, I’ve never mer a single soul whose life went the way they planned it. But I’ve  dug myself into a hole that has no exit and i don’t know what to do. I constantly have things to do yet I never get anything done. I’m not as smart as I should be. I used to be so sure in everything I did but lately every decision I make is the wrong one.

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Royal Growing Pain

As we grow up people ask us all the time what we want to do when we get older. We are taught as early as possible the path we should take in our lives. Go to school, graduate, go to college and get a job. We’re all taught that we serve a purpose in society. We all have a function that we have to acknowledge and perform. But what about those who get left behind? What about the people who can’t quite find their niche?
In the Disney Channel movie Sky High the villian is named Royal Pain. So back in the day when she was in school Royal Pain was just seen as a nerd and an outcast come to find out she was a technopath  (stick with me i promise I’m almost to my point) but her superpower wasn’t seen as a superpower until science and technology really developed. Her purpose she was meant to serve in society didn’t really exist yet. So what happens if the function you’re meant to serve in society doesn’t exist anymore  or if it doesn’t exist yet? What are you supposed to do?

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With my woes

I’ve spent most of my day carrying around a very heavy heart for no particular reason. I’ve prayed for confirmation and I think I got it this morning  so I thought today would turn out well; well it didn’t. I try so hard not to mess up at work that I mess up. I know I haven’t
taken care of everything that needs attention so I don’t really need a reminder. Today I’ve felt heavy and empty and it’s the strangest sensation. I have no one to talk to and I can’t keep my thoughts in order. I feel sad, very sad and if you asked me why I couldn’t tell you.

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