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Valid like salid

My feelings were never valid because I was a child, conceived of your sin; born from your womb. Even as an adult to express hurt or anger or disappointment in your eyes is a display of disrespect. 

My depression was never valid in your least favorite child. You sought counselors for your son but told me I have an attitude problem.

My hunger is never valid because I eat too much in your eyes anyway. For years I trained my body to sufice with the minimum for the sake of a size, starving, losing my hair and my period but I’m never enough.

Now I’ve had enough. I think we need to take a break. Not out of spite but for the sake of my sanity. 

I will never find validation with you.

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Real Deal Holyfield

With the semester winding down and finals right around the corner, life has started moving very quickly in very different directions. I realized the speed of things today when I went to the restroom and I felt the ground shake. My first thought was earthquake but we don’t have those here; then I realized, the ground hadn’t moved, I was trembling and shaking. Unsteady and unsure of anything, I couldn’t stop myself from convulsing. I don’t know where this came from but it sure did scare me.
So right there in the bathroom stall I cried and I prayed. I prayed for myself and my family and for guidance through the rest of this semester.

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