Monthly Archives: March 2015

Happy Monday! 3/30/15



Always remember that YOU are the chosen one!


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Advice for the night

“You need to go out and get stupid drunk and wake up hung over, go shopping and spend way to much money, go bungee jumping, or shoot a gun. You need to find something you can get lost in”

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Big Girls Don’t Cry

As I child I cried all he time; for any reason at all I cried. My heart stayed on my sleeve like a tattoo.  I can still remember my mother telling me “big girls don’t cry,” we didn’t really express those emotions in my household. Eventually I begin to see vulnerability as a weakness. For my adolescent years I wore a mask; it was hard like plastic, stolid, and very consistent.  I didn’t let myself cry for six years. Not once. Death came and went, pain stayed around for a while, and sadness found a home in my heart, sill…no tears. Now I feel like I can’t cry, not that I shouldn’t cry but I physically have a hard time shedding tears. I need a physical release for my emotions and I just don’t have it.Oddly enough, now I constantly feel as if I’m on the verge of tears and honestly it’s emotionally exhausting.

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Pull the trigger

We barely know each other but I miss the attention he gives me. And maybe I only like him because he has an attractive face and he compliments me but for now that’s enough for me. Cupid doesn’t have a bow and arrow anymore so I need him to pull the trigger.

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Nothing was the same or how its supposed to be or how I thought it would be. Everything is wrong and out of place and out of order and i never thought I’d be here. But this is how life works apparently, I’ve never mer a single soul whose life went the way they planned it. But I’ve  dug myself into a hole that has no exit and i don’t know what to do. I constantly have things to do yet I never get anything done. I’m not as smart as I should be. I used to be so sure in everything I did but lately every decision I make is the wrong one.

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“He looked at me”

“He looked at me and smiled”
“He looked at me and chuckled to himself”
“He looked at me and I saw the future in his eyes”

He. Looked. At. Me. that phrase has been stuck in my head all day

And now I know why. Because he looked at me. He wasn’t my boyfriend but when he was here
he was the only person that wanted to do that. He wanted to look at me. He wanted to see me.
I haven’t had anyone really want to since.

I want someone to look at me. I want to be wanted. I want to be seen

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Sorry doesn’t fix the broken vase

If you pick up a glass vase and slam it on the ground its broken. You can say sorry to the vase but it’s still broken. To fix it you have to pick up every single broken piece of glass (probably cutting yourself in the process) find a glue thats strong enough to hold the glass together but gentle enough to not ruin it, spend the time fitting the puzzle pieces back together and even still nothing you do will ever renew the vase to its orginal form. It might  look the same, feel the same, serve the same purpose but it will never be the  same.

My mom gave me that metaphor when I was younger and now I know why.

Get Silly and Crank that soulja boy with Marco Polo and Dj Cupid

Do yall remember that time from 2008ish-2010ish when it seemed like every damn song had a dance to it? Like..
soulja boy, cupid shuffle, get silly, bird walk, heal toe, lean with it rock with it,  Marco Polo and thats just off the top of my head

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Baylor’s Art Briles to speak Friday at SXSW

Statesman U

Kansas State v Baylor

With his team on spring break, Baylor coach Art Briles will talk football on the opening day of SXSWSports.

The topic is “coaching fast and fearlessly.” Briles bio for SXSW describes him as a “Texas high school football coaching savant turned college offensive genius turned standard-setting visionary for how to reinvent a program.”

Briles will be joined by Kevin Kelley, the high school coach in Arkansas who is known nationally as the guy who never punts.

A year ago, Texas Tech coach Kliff Kingsbury was a featured panelist during the inaugural SXSWSports.

The panel is open to those attending SXSW Interactive.

Check here Friday afternoon and we’ll give you the highlights.

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